Genesis (rhapsody_xxx) wrote,
Genesis
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Selfless or Selfish?

Why the hell do I do this?
Sometimes I wonder how much I do and how much I get. I know it sounds selfish, but I have been selfless for a long time and it's starting to hurt.
Not being appreciated by many at all and even though I know they are hurting me, I still stick my foot out for them, why the hell do I do that?

Is it a habit? Something that is hard to stop no matter how much I try?
I also have the habit of chewing my fingernails and I tried so many things to stop that. But it didn't work because I didn't keep it up. So, how am I meant to stop people from using me so easily?

I allow people to share anything they want. Thoughts, feelings. Just to get things off their chest and I like it when people do that. But when it's my turn to want some help, I don't have it. I'm left on my own for that. To repair myself.

I sometimes wondered why it's like this. Is it karma? Are some people meant to live like this?
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